Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

A Transperson finding his space in this gender binary world

I've just taken my first T-jab in a 3-week regime and will be taking my second one in a couple days time.I feel my breasts smaller and my arm muscles hardening. I did 20 pushups without breaking a sweat. I swam 20 laps without stopping to rest. It may be the placebo effect, but I feel my hips leaner and my shoulders broader. I feel heavier but leaner.
 

My voice cracks sometimes, throaty. And then it's back to normal. But what is normal?
 

My lover quietly observes, and tells me she will have a problem when my voice changes. She's very audio, while I am very visual. How will you sound through the phone? How will I know it's you? I like your voice now, she tells me in her quiet voice.
 

I got my fourth Sustanon 250 jab on Oct 26th.I became ultra horny and could not get enoughof porn. My gf is in India and I dont have myprivate room. I masturbated until my hand sours.
I want to do porn flicks to finance my subversive films. This is my ambition. My voice is hoarse. I feel like a horse. I am hungry and can eat one. My biceps hardened, my shoulders broadened. My face...I don't know. Stania says I look like Andy Lau.
 

I shaved for the first time at the age of 34.

I use some free hotel shaving cream from a generic, white tube. Pressed out a thin white smear and apply above my lip. I use a plastic disposable hotel shaver on the thin line of dark below my nose.
The straight razor negotiating the bend. It
leaves a stinging feeling and I remember my dad saying why he hated to shave. I apply the aftershave, oww.. and then it cools down instantly. Nice.

I am not a man. I am not a woman. I pass
easily, but sometimes I don't. It's not my intention. I just want to be comfortable in my own skin.